“But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble. Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you.” James 4:6, 7, 8a
Sometimes grief is maddening and vexes the soul to the point of depression. All looks bleak or overwhelming. Energies wane. Activities you once enjoyed are exchanged for inertia. Gardening may be replaced with long visits to the recliner of the missing loved one. Brisk walks may turn instead to aimless wanderings. Even a simple trip to the grocery store can become a heavy burden full of isle after isle of decisions that once seemed so simple.
But God gives more grace.
Do you struggle to feel its presence? Stop and think: Have you humbly asked for it? Or are you trying to do this hard work of grieving in your own proud way?
Take a deep breath; another if necessary. Think about submitting to God. He must have allowed the circumstances that cause your grief. Can you submit to His will for your life, even when it involves the death of someone you love?
I remember (from the recliner on a day like that described above) the dark nights in this very room, when I agonized over submitting to God’s will. God gave me grace at my pleading then; I can plead for it again.
“Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness,” says James 4:9. Set in a discussion about humbling repentance, this verse probably speaks to how we should humble ourselves because of our sin. But for now, in this grief-walk, of my life, there are days when this is what I am supposed to do. At least for segments of time. Then by God’s grace I can get off the recliner, pull some weeds, and take a brisk walk.
Thank you, God for giving more grace!