“Pray without ceasing.” I Thessalonians 5:17
When I was thirty-two years old, married eleven years, the mother of two daughters with a third baby on the way, my husband deserted me for another woman. The pain was excruciating. I had a lot of head knowledge about God and the Bible, but now I needed to put it in shoe leather. My testimony became Psalm 119:92: “Unless thy law had been my delights, I should then have perished in mine affliction.” I read the Word like I had never read it before, grasping for something to sustain me, and I prayed.
I prayed. My family prayed. My church prayed. My children prayed. I prayed thousands of times that God would bring my husband to repentance and restore my marriage. Twenty-six years later, my husband died of cancer. My multitude of prayers for the restoration of our marriage and for his repentance were, to my knowledge, unanswered. What was I to do? What did God do with all those prayers? Didn't He hear? Questions plagued me mercilessly. Surely rebuilding of marriages and repenting of sinners are within God's will. Does prayer not work? Finally I realized the truth. My faith is not in prayers answered or unanswered; my faith is in God and His Word. Psalm 18:30 says, “As for God, His way is perfect.” I choose to rest in His sovereignty.